Loneliness

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Horrible, isn’t it? That feeling of floating in the middle of the ocean, unable to drown, surrounded by bitter darkness and screeching silence, choking back tears, slowly losing your mind.

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Happy Father’s (?) Day!

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Today is a day to celebrate and appreciate fathers all around the world. However, since the one who’s been carrying both roles in my life is my mother, I’ll spend the day to give thanks to her.

I still remember my early elementary school days. We were still living in Vietnam back then. Every morning my mom would take me to school on her old bicycle. We didn’t have enough money to be able to afford a motorcycle like most people in the city did. One time, Continue reading

Long Distance

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“The scariest thing about distance is that you don’t know whether they will miss you or forget you.”

– Nicholas Sparks, The Notebook

So here’s the thing: Up until this point, I have gone through two long-distance relationships. You might say “Two isn’t a lot,” but hey, loving from afar is way more draining and challenging than you can imagine. If you’ve been in the same shoes, you understand. The bittersweet feeling of knowing someone is there for you, but isn’t actually “there.” You can’t touch them or hold them or smell their hair or taste their kiss. It’s exhausting: yearning and longing for someone. Don’t feed into any of this “your bodies are apart, but your hearts are always together” bullshit. That’s not how it works. When you love someone, you would want to be close to them, to have physical interactions, to feel them right there next to you. Intimacy is just as an important part of a relationship as feelings are.

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Secrets of the Rain

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I woke up to a gloomy morning today. The sky was covered with dark clouds and the occasional low rumbling sound of thunder. Soon after, the rain came like a fulfilled promise of the universe.
On days like these, most people often feel a little blue and melancholic, because that’s the essence of the rain. That’s what it does. It deflates things, makes them wet and mushy and heavy. Whenever I watch the rain like this, I can’t help but wonder if it really is the universe crying, or it’s just trying to talk to us. I wonder if the sound of water dripping was actually telling stories, letting us in on the secrets it carries through time and space.

There is an Asian folklore tale, perhaps you’ve heard of it, about the love story between the weaver girl Zhinu and the cowherd Niulang. Zhinu was the daughter of the goddess Xi Wang Mu, yet she fell in love and married the mortal man Niulang, which angered her mother. She took Continue reading

Book Review: The Fault in Our Stars

In Theaters June 6, 2014

“Everybody should have true love, and it should last at least as long as your life does.”

– John Green, The Fault in Our Stars

Spoiler-free 🙂
I actually came across the movie trailer first while leisurely browsing blogs for something inspirational, and then found out later that it was from a book. Cancer story, sounded like it’d be sad, which is exactly what I like when reading books or listening to music. I just want to be tugged at the heart string, because that’s how you leave a strong impression on someone.

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Writing 101, Day Four: Loss

“There is someone else…” He said slowly and quietly.

The moment the words left his mouth, I felt my strength drained out of me, sucked down into the earth. My entire body went numb and I couldn’t feel a single thing except for the throbbing pain in my chest, loud and vibrant, screaming at me to just collapse so that I wouldn’t have to feel it anymore.

“What?” I choked out. I couldn’t believe my ears. Continue reading